Today is the eve of a very important anniversary that marks the end and beginning of a chapter in my life. I recall how things were one year ago today. I was preparing to end a chapter that only brought sadness. I was facing the next day with some fear, I was anticipating that things were not going to go as planned, I faced a blank future. I had no idea what was going to happen, I just knew I was going to get out.
I remember who I was a year ago. I was unsure of myself, I had no self-esteem,, I wasn't even confident in myself. I was completely dependent on someone who only disappointed me. I had zero control over my own life. The only time I felt sure of anything was when I was at work. I feared the smallest things, even feared having a $5 bill in my pocket. Happy moments were rare. I sacrificed my friends for my relationship.
So who am I today? I am free to be me. I am confident, and rely only on myself. I have changed careers, I have a future ahead of me. I am told I am beautiful every day. I am loved unconditionally. I have my mom back. My boys are happy. Bills are getting paid. Overall, I am completely the opposite of the person I was a year ago. I found myself again.
Life is good today. I am in control again. And damn...it feels GOOD!
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